Anxiety and Relief- It's a Wheel of Fortune We Spin
Too often I feel like there is just too much to get done. This causes me a lot of anxiety!!!!! My head is just buzzing with ideas, projects, goals, desires, and necessities. I need to find time to write that fun blog post before my inspiration gets away. I can't wait to do tarot readings for my beautiful clients! But if I don't go the grocery store soon there will be no food in the house besides that jar of pickled jalapenos. Oh, and advancing info for Kristen's tour was supposed to be done last week and now I'm out of printer ink anyway. Gotta get some exercise in, gotta make a doctor's appointment, need to get to the post office, gotta walk the dog- wait, I have a dog?! Guys, Kristen and I adopted a sweet rescue dog named Cosmo TODAY. We have been fostering him for the last week and can't imagine why anyone would give up this beautiful, sweet, silly fella. He is just a wonderful dog. We almost can't believe he has found his forever home with us. We are in love! Welcome to the family, Cosmo!
If you haven't been following along with the blog, let me just fill you in that this dog adoption has been a long time coming. I've been talking about it for years and we hoped to get a dog at the beginning of this year finally. Moving to Nashville, tours to Europe, and LIFE got in the way of making this dream a reality. It felt like there were just too many obstacles, too many things to get done, not enough time, not enough money, etc. Besides, wouldn't a rescue dog destroy the house? I don't anything about dog training! Would my landlord decide we couldn't have pets? It was all too much and I would never be ready. There would always be something that came first or got in the way and I would never get it together. Despair!
Now, seemingly all of a sudden, and seemingly after years of waiting, I have Cosmo in my life. Just like that, fate has turned around and said, "You are ready. You do have time. You'll figure out the money. Here is your new puppy." I'm not going to tell you that the anxiety has melted away, but the uncertainty has, and that is a start. We are on the upswing! The Wheel of Fortune teaches us that our lives go in cycles. Sometimes we feel hopeless and sometimes we are full of hope. In our world of duality, this is the only way we can understand good fortune, by experiencing some bad luck at times.
Why the Wheel of Fortunes spins is fascinating to contemplate but ultimately irrelevant. We can spend our entire lives seeking the meaning of it all, but very few will find enlightenment. The rest of us will have to live with not knowing why things happen. It's just the way the Universe works. It's great to be a part of the universal plan: exhilarating, heartwarming, frustrating, agonizing, and everything in between. Whatever the point of it all is, I certainly hope I find out someday. Meanwhile, I try to be grateful. Today it is easier than other days to say exactly what I am grateful for: Cosmo. His soft brown eyes and close snuggles relieve my anxiety just a little at a time, bringing me more fully into the present moment...
If you are super into dogs like me, you can follow Cosmo on Instagram @cosmorawks!